Army specialist Mickiela Montoya was standing silently in the back of
a Manhattan classroom while a group of male Iraq war veterans spoke
to a small audience about their experiences as soldiers. It was November
2006, and she had been back from Iraq for a year, but was still too
insecure to speak out in public. Anyway, the room was full of men, and
Montoya had learned that a lot of men aren't much interested in listening
to military women.
"Nobody believes me when I say I'm a veteran," she said that day, tucking her long red hair behind her ears. "I was in Iraq getting bombed and shot at, but people won't even listen when I say I was at war. You know why? Because I'm a female."
Montoya, who grew up in a Mexican family in East Los Angeles, served in Iraq for eleven months, from 2005-2006, with the 642nd Division Aviation Support Battalion. She was only 19 back then, but by the time she turned 21 she was as bitter as any old veteran, not only because of the lack of recognition she was receiving as a combat vet but because of the way she had been treated as a soldier—by her comrades, the army and by the Department of Veterans Affairs.
Many female veterans share Montoya's anger. They join the military
for the same reasons men do—to escape dead-end towns or dysfunctional
families, to pay for college or seek adventure, to follow their ideals
or find a career—only to find themselves denigrated and sexually hounded
by many of the "brothers" on whom they are supposed to rely.
And when they go to war, this harassment does not necessarily stop.
The double traumas of combat and sexual persecution may be why a 2008
RAND study found that female veterans are suffering double the rates
of depression and post-traumatic stress disorder for their male counterparts.
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